future tense
I’m thinking of taking film classes or journalism next semester if I can. I’m beginning to understand what I love about my current major, and why I chose it: I chose urban planning for its relation to architecture, sure, but I think I chose it for something more. It’s an obscure direction. It’s an insider job, which no one sees, but affects everyone. It brings to light the importance of community, and collaboration of people to work for the betterment of society.
Then if I take what is important to me, I realize I’m more in love with the idea of it all. I’m in love with the idea of exposing and showing the small people, and bringing it closer to the world. I’m in love with the candymakers, inventors, glass-blowers, shoemakers, and all the people who make the small things not because it makes a profit for them necessarily, but because they love their jobs.
I want to be in love with my job too, but I realize with the skills I have now, such as photography, design, and the variety of other hobbies I have, I feel like I could be a good documentarist of those people who are passionate about their work, their life as an artist (we all are) and more.
I want to be as passionate about my work as they are to theirs. Somehow, I hope I’ll find it being passionate about them.
What does Gordon Freeman (yes it’s misspelled) have to do with all of this? Nothing really… just felt like drawing that in ms paint for mac just cause I can. It’s really bad xD